Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Big girl, you AIN'T beautiful

I am officially depressed about my weight ever since my mum told me that I'm fat and I quote unquote "Bila kau lepas mandi, kau keluar pakai tuala, bontot kau bergegar2" (Too lame to even bother translating). Thanks mother, really. Thanks for comparing me to my sisters who 1. Do not have tits and ass like I do, 2. Never did sports when they were younger so have no muscle tone to speak of, 3. Don't really eat much anyway because one is obsessed with looking good for her future husband and another doesn't have time to eat because of her crazy shifts.

It pisses me off when people pass off unnecessary comments like this without considering that I'm really tall and I have a big frame. Because of her stupid comments the other day, I'm keep thinking about losing weight. Like literally, every second. I woke up this morning and I went like "OMG I seriously have weight retention issues" and yesterday when I was scooping up rice for lunch, "Rice is starchy and makes you gain 10 pounds" flashed through my mind and I ended up emptying half my plate back into the rice cooker and having a really sucky lunch.  LIKE SERIOUSLY, WHO DOES THAT EXCEPT FOR OBESE PSYCHOS AND HORNY BULIMICS?!

And please eh, I am not the sort to whinge about my weight and not do anything about it. I have been exercising since like a month ago.

I AM SO DEPRESSED!

Fuck laaaaaa.

2 comments:

  1. Sascha, you aren't fat to me and probably a lot of other sane people. You are just tall and you may seem big, but you are definitely not fat. :0 Don't let such people affect you.
    I hate being skinny/thin too and people like to make stupid comments about me NEEDING to eat more. I would always purposely stuff my face in front of them because I also feel the need to make them realise that I do eat a lot, or at least like normal. But I no longer care as much anymore. They don't know how depressing it is to walk around skinny and feeling like a skeleton, and it's hard to buy beautiful watches that will look good on extremely small wrists and bracelets too.. :/
    There's a bad side to being 'big' or 'small'. Either way, let's just not care about people.
    We eat what we want because we want to, or not, and exercise because it's healthy. Not because we feel it's necessary to lose weight.

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  2. I know what you mean. Moms can be so tactful. Mine has an aversion to fat or "big" people so the pressure has been on me since I was young. Ho wellz. (She even asked my dad while he was eating "You tak rase eh, yang you ni semakin gemok?" Applause applause.)


    Tell them you're just big boned.

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